It was in 2012 that I first launched this website, and began a more professional practice of Astronumerology. I had done readings for family and friends prior to that and in perfect timing as my venus was eclipsed in May 2012 at 0 degrees gemini (venus rules my 10th house and is in the 10th house) I began working on and subsequently published this website. It was time to define part of my professional identity as an Astronumerologist. It was (and still is) my intention to teach the public about this profound art and science that has transformed my life, and make the teachings as accessible and practical as they could be, while at the same time maintaining its depth and authenticity. Since then I have done hundreds of readings for people all over the world, which I am so grateful for as I learn from each and every client's life. I will never cease to be amazed at how the universal intelligence plans everything, sometimes down to the minute, and everything occurs in divine timing. The planetary motions are the gradual unfolding of our karma over time. The stars give timing to our fate, they don't determine it. We determine it through the karma of our past and present actions.
I celebrated my birthday yesterday and had the chance to reflect on how my philosophies have changed with my new experiences. I believe that you can never have all the slices of the pie at the same time in life, each slice representing different desirable conditions in life. To me, happiness comes from focusing on the slices that I do have, and surrendering to God's plan for my life. The law of attraction and manifestation trains people to focus on desire after desire, always wanting something else. Some popular teachers preach that if only you can visualize in great detail what you want to have on a daily basis and want it badly enough, you will surely have it as long as you follow their special method. I think they exploit the sense of lack and longing for happiness that many people have. Through my studies, I have come to understand that their fixed karma is to be wealthy or famous because their soul felt these conditions were most conducive to learning the lessons they came to earth to learn. They would have become externally successful even without these law of attraction practices. Just because a person is famous or well regarded in their field, does not mean they are wiser, more evolved or talented than anyone else. They just have the karma to live their lives in the public eye. They have the same internal struggles and fall into the same traps that the average person does, yet they are admired and emulated by those who believe they are truly happy. The trouble with the law of attraction is that you are left living with a subtle level of unhappiness no matter how much you have accomplished or how ideal your life looks from the outside. There may be a sense of longing for someone else to validate your latest accomplishment, for you to gain wider recognition or compensation for your skills, and for loved ones to behave in a way that is accordance with your expectations of them. When others fail to meet expectations, you are unhappy. In contrast, when you accept people for who they are, you have more inner peace because your happiness is no longer dependent on the way they treat you.
I think positive affirmations and goal setting are important, so long as you do not get attached to a particular outcome or judge your sense of worth in comparison with others. Thoughts are trains and you need to be careful about which train you get on. Sometimes our own plans for our lives do not accurately reflect the fixed karmas in our charts, or the wider universal script. It can sometimes be difficult to comprehend why certain outcomes occur. I no longer give my mental peace away by replaying in my mind what I wished could have gone differently. People are in our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I trust that whomever is with me is meant to be with me at this time and I let go of those who are no longer with me. People can only stay so long as there is a match energetically, or there is some karma to be worked out, and when there is a shift in either person or the work between them is finished for this lifetime, people will go their separate ways.
I believe the best way to proceed is to take action towards your goals keeping in mind the universe may have a different plan for you. Surrender to divine will brings the deep rooted peace we see in those who have become self-realized. There are many unexpected twists along the way that could never have been anticipated and that change the course of your life. We must not lose faith trying to understand why things happened the way they did because we did not write the script:
"When something does not go the way we anticipated, we tend to blame ourselves. We assume that it was some fault, failing or curse of our own that caused the project not to bear the intended fruit. However, God’s plan is sometimes inscrutable and His ways are frequently mysterious. The reason for a project’s failure or a venture’s loss may have no connection with our hard work or capabilities. It may simply have to do with the script of the Eternal and Universal Drama."
- H.H. Pujya Swami Chidanand Saraswatiji
We can find happiness to the degree we surrender to God's plan instead of craving for more and trying to change the script. Our destinies are interrelated and the intersection of important meetings have already been set at specific times. The universe has perfect intelligence and wisdom. I have observed that people create much of their own sadness and anxiety by having thoughts and expectations that are not in line with their destiny. It’s so peaceful to go through life watching it as the passing show, while the real excitement is within our own souls, to go inward is where the magic is.
It is now a inner knowing of mine that you can try as hard and as long as you want, but if what you want to happen isn't part of the cosmic play, it won't happen. And then there are times that things will happen effortlessly. You must try your best but learn to accept outcomes as God's will and sometimes beyond the human mind to fully understand these mysterious ways. I've learned it's best not to judge an outcome as good or bad, because we may not know why the sequencing of events had to happen a certain way. I believe that is what the sages mean when they say that thinking is not necessary for life to go on, and now I realize the futility of thinking so much on a given topic when the outcome is already set to occur. Surrender means letting go and letting God.
I love the sense of renewal and rebirth that comes with my birthday, as I feel radiant and ready to take on the next turn around the sun. I have so much gratitude for all of my loyal clients, many of whom have become friends. It has been an immense privilege to get to know you over the last 10 years and I hope to see many more.